You and I

It’s been so long now,
Somehow I know you’re gone.
In ways I am too,
Yet I still picture you at every dawn.

I can live without you,
Even though I thought I never could.
Life, but with a void.
You hold that piece with you for good.

No matter who lies near,
Love songs and scenes, or lustful sighs,
All have but two stars,
My eyes and ears perceive just You and I.

Fail

When my senses all fail
Dreams of you overcome my mind,
Truly tangible memories.
For I can’t shake the stamp you left on my faculties:

My ears only respond to your tones.
Your scent outlasts even the sweetest flowers.
When others touch me, my skin crawls with your desire.
The taste of your lips haunt my own.
Worst of all, my eyes deceive me daily,
They long to be set upon you,
and never break gaze again.

But miles teach an unwanted lesson,
And as my senses soak in this knowledge,

They fail me.

Hollow Heart

All I see are long corridors,
All I hear are empty words.
All I feel is the darkness closing in,
I can’t believe I’m back to this again.

My water is completely drawn,
It comes from moving on. And
Though normal in appearance, graph, and chart,
I’m living life with a hollow heart.

You take your cures and voodoo,
I’ll just look back, and hope that you do.
I gave you more than a piece or part,
So I’ll live this life with a hollow heart.

Unfinished, Untitled

(I never finished this one…)

Looking at pictures,
The only ones I own,
Of friends and family,
And the place I like to call. . . my home.

Computer screen glares,
These songs speak to me.
Authors from the past urge,
“Let your heart rest, just let. . . it be”

Different message,
From the next on my list.
Lyrics from the speakers blast,
“Why quit on love that’s from. . . the past?”

Oooooo. . . .

Shine

(Who is your light?)
You are my, hope and inspiration.
I can not, imagine life without,
You’re smile and, calm determination.
I love how, you’re never down and out.
You’ve shown me ways, I couldn’t see,
When the path was blocked with monotony.
When times were hard, back in the past,
You helped me through and so I ask. . .

Did you know that you’re my light?
Whenever darkness falls on me!
You always shine so bright,
When I’ve dropped down to my knees!
And so I send this promise,
When your task is tough to do,
You said that you’d be there for me,
So I’ll be there for you.
My life is, full and complicated.
Sometimes I, don’t have time to call.
I realize, at night alone in my bed,
Without you, I have no life at all.

You’ve shown with, optimistic words just
How green the, grass is up ahead.
You bring me, back to the present because,
My own grass, is green and also blessed.
You’ve shown me ways, I couldn’t see,
When the path was blocked with monotony.
When times were hard, back in the past,
You helped me through and so I ask. . .

Did you know that you’re my light?
Whenever darkness falls on me!
You always shine so bright,
When I’ve dropped down to my knees!
And so I send this promise,
When your task is tough to do,
You said that you’d be there for me,
So I’ll be there for you.

You are my, hope and inspiration,
My light when, others cannot see. . .

Count Me Out

(This is about my high school superintendent and school board. We were SO frustrated with them my senior year. We tried (and succeeded?) to really let them know how we felt too. This is a song-rant i wrote after he pissed me off haha. The strange sentence breaks and commas were how I wrote it to sound with the music I had in my head. Weird.)

I know it sounds cliche, but let the
Chips fall where they may, and we can
Make them go away! That’s what I say!
We’re fallin’ in a hole, it feels like
Life’s out of control, but you
Know you bought the role! Just pay the toll!
You seem to think, We’re outta touch.
You seem to think, You know so much.
We seem to think, You are a crutch.
You hit the brakes, but forgot the clutch!

Don’t count me in, your twisted plans,
Please don’t begin, I’m not a fan!
Master of spin, Without a doubt!
I don’t want in, Just count me out!
Count me out!

My mind is on vacation, and I’ve lost
My motivation, for the strain
Of education. I’ll take donations!

All these titles that I’m wearin’, have me
Endlessly despairin’, while my
Temper keeps on flarin’. Just quit starin’!
You seem to think, We’re outta touch.
You seem to think, You know so much.
We seem to think, You are a crutch.
You hit the brakes, but forgot the clutch!

Don’t count me in, your twisted plans,
Please don’t begin, I’m not a fan!
Master of spin, Without a doubt!
I don’t want in, Just count me out!
Count me out!

This Too Shall Pass

(I like this one quite a bit. . .)

Hold your head up high my son.
I’ll send my angels to fly as one,
To your side this eve. Be calm, young one.
You know I’ll always be here,
I’m never gone!

This too shall pass.
Though only one set is seen in the sand,
I’m carrying you through the hardest of times,
Please give me your hand and you’ll be just fine.

You are my rock and my shield, Jesus,
In who else shall I place my trust?
The weight of the world is pushing me down.
Yet if I simply believe,
I can move any mound.

This too shall pass.
Though I see only one set of prints in the sand.
You’re carrying me through these hardest of times.
I’ll give you my hand, and I know I’ll be fine!

St. Peter stands smiling mere steps ahead,
I look back down at those ’round my bed.
“He sent those angels when to Heaven you cried.”
Peter said with a grin before taking me inside.

This too shall pass.
Though only one set you can see in the sand.
He’ll carry you through the hardest of times.
Just give him your hand, and you’ll be just fine.

Awake One Lonely Night

(This short poem pretty much sums up almost every night as I lie in bed. Just substitute 3 or 4 am for midnight. Doesn’t have the same ring though. . . haha)

Midnight is drawing so near,
But my mind just won’t clear.
The clock speeds away,
Yet my troubles seem to stay.
I think that hell might feel this way.

Awake out of force of habit.
My eyes wanna fall but my brain won’t have it.
All these thoughts running through!
What do I have to do?
To get some sleep. . . tonight?

Vengeful

I’m pissed. I am angry. I’m upset. I am mad.
Yet I’m down. I’m depressed. I’m confused, and I’m sad.
You treated me like a child,
Like you had to hold my hand.
You lied right to my face,
And now I wanna get it back!

I’m vengeful!
Draw the line and take up sides.
I’m vengeful!
Please Lord, take this from my mind.
I’m having all these thoughts,
That I know can never be.
And all I’m asking now,
Is the truth to set me free!

You lied, and you left me. You wasted all my time.
Yet I still believe. . . Your words in every line.
Even your good friends ell me,
I should give in. Pack up. Move on.
But I can’t seem to do it,
So I’ll just think of you till dawn.

I’m vengeful!
Draw the line and take up sides.
I’m vengeful!
Please Lord, take this from my mind.
I’m having all these thoughts,
That I know can never be.
And all I’m asking now,
Is the truth to set me free!

Guilty

What crimes of life and I guilty of,
Besides giving you all my love?
And should I just lock away,
Those thoughts of you both night and day?
When I think of life without you,
My heart burns and my spirit too.
What words can pen and paper say,
That show your effect on me this way?